Mind Control

I hand my mind the pen, relinquish control, let it wander, let it roam.

It takes me to a forest; we watch the trees swish and sway,

Birds chirping, sun shining -

It wants to remind me of when I looked at life this way.

Whilst we walk I see images of you, the man that made me blind.

I see us laugh, and then I watch myself cry,

All the colour drains from the trees

Their leaves shrivel and fall; I have to watch them die.

My mind berates me for putting it through this again - All the same pain.

The beauty around me has all but disappeared,

Shrouded in the hate I feel for you,

When I met you I felt queasy, this was what my mind had feared.

Leaving me to wallow, my mind gets up to leave, it can’t take this anymore; now is its turn grieve.